Let The Music Heal Your Soul..

This is the song i'm listening now.. Its a very soothing song.. Nice song.. Second Best song i like.. Hehe.. I still cant find my Favourite song since i last formated my laptop.. heh.. Its called Hands To Heaven by Breath.. If anyone got that song please send me can? Thank you in advance..

Suddenly feel so troubled.. dunno y.. heh.. du lan with my bro.. attitude.. disrespectful.. Totally Different from me.. heh.. Physical wise diff too.. haa.. and i admit, he's taller and perhaps thats why people see him as more handsome? haa.. but thats definately not the reason y I dulan.. He doesn't want to go to my cousin's place because his friends there gamble big, play si ki pi(4 cards).. min $10 and you can see people playing in hundreds.. haa.. smoke too.. He said nothing to do too.. heh.. and he told my mum if he see she take out $50, he'll create a scene and want to leave or argue/talk about christianity with my aunt(A Christian).. And yes who can not be pissed at that point when he said that.. WTH.. My mother told him my Aunt's husband is very sensitive about it.. and tell my bro better dun say any wrong things.. How can my bro behave like that sia.. Thats not the way to discourage someone not to gamble loh..


Not say superstitious or what lah hor, but yesterday he ask my mum to help him carry a book(shu) cause he got nothing to do.. And guess how long he read it? For a mere 5-15mins on the train.. After that, it was in my mum's bag.. and my mum lose money.. heh.. he even went off early to meet his friends.. and expect my mother to bring it home for him.. Its quite a thick book, Hard cover, and about christian stuffs i think.. I'm not against Christians, I've been to churches before and i find it fun.. sometimes enlightening.. But the way my bro is spending his time there is totally too Much.. I've seen People converting to Christians and their change is too much.. its like totally another person..

I find that every religion wants to teach you to be a better person.. And they have different teachings.. Thats why people have different beliefs too.. And you cant blame them for believing something.. you can only disagree with them, that is if you dun believe.. haa.. For me, I'm a Free-Thinker.. Being a Free-Thinker does NOT mean believing in everything, anything.. For me, Its Believing in YOURSELF..

I shall end today's entry.. tired liao.. heh.. CNY was good.. Tommorrow will be better!! :D

SenS: If I tell you I Love You, Will you be mine??

SENS blogged on 2:36 AM

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Over..

Friday i had my Review and it ended very quickly.. The Panel reviewer never ask much things.. heh.. so yeah.. its OVER.. now wait for 9th and 10th Feb Exhibition.. hee..

And AGM is OVER.. Passed down already.. to Ben Lee.. taught him stuffs already.. my job is done.. almost ba.. haa.. Tired.. go sleep liao.. Goodnights..

SenS: Wishes all a Happy Chinese New Year!! May everyone be Happier this year.. Smile more!! =D

SENS blogged on 3:10 AM

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1 more week..

Arh..!!! Suddenly feel like blogging.. but dunno where to start.. Feel so F up now.. Why do people like to cut in when i haven even said a Third word?? And i'm those that give in quite easily.. ( and with Manners.. hee..) Thats y, when people talk, i'll listen most of the time.. sometimes maybe trying to say, but its always jus one word from me first to check if the talker has finished his/her sentance.. if the talker continues, i'll wait again untill he finishes it.. But why when i said 'that', he has to Interrupt me with his own reason before i even state my reasonS.. Its so unlike him.. I just wait and listen loh.. after he's done, i start, but jus a short 2 words again, he state his reason again.. and i jus kept quiet after that.. Felt so pointless at that time.. I couldn't sleep the day before.. haa.. just because i'm thinking of 'that'.. About the future..

What is a Meeting for?? Lots of you would say its for Discussion and maybe pass down some message.. And this meeting is particularly for Discussion.. But he came with his own plan already.. And he just come and indirectly tell us what it is.. he did ask for some opinions, which are the easier and obvious ones.. and for some which i disagree, like i said above, when i start to state my reasons, he gave me his.. WTH.. From the start, way before the interview, he had already state his plans.. Whats the point in having a meeting when you have already Decided.. just send an E-Mail to us let us know can liao lah..

I'm sorry i was late for meeting, but the message passed was messed up.. Misunderstanding.. in the end i waited for someone who's not involved in the meeting.. Talking about passing message.. Sometimes I don't even know what's going on.. heh.. Never received any message or something.. heh.. (See previous post with something about 'Writing without a Pen/Pencil')

During the meeting, I was like so ALONE.. no one support me.. give me back up.. all support his decision.. cant blame them too.. But,

You know how it feels when you wanna state your reasonS, but someone cut in and said his first.. And before you are able to said a Third word, someone else Interrupted you and state his reason to support the 1st person.. While all along, you're ALONE with no help at all.. And not even given a Chance to state your reasonS before case closed..

F up.. Useless.. Anger.. Dissapointed.. Sad.. Du Lan.. Helpless.. When he cant give any reason, he'll just ask "Everyone agree that this person can be nurtured?? Well then we'll let him be.." he's just making it hard to say no.. I never said anything and I never nod my head.. But i think he let it be majority wins? But i never heard much "yes" coming out too.. heh.. and in the end, i feel like for the whole thing, most people are put in to be Nurtured.. and whos gonna nurture them?? haa.. Sadded.. I remember i managed to state part of one of my many reasonS.. And he said something which i feel its contradicting.. And he still disagrees with me.. Its like whatever else that i gonna say, it'll be Useless/Pointless.. So i just stop there.. Feeling Helpless.. He's just doing things HIS way.. what can I do? Someone tell me.. enlighten me.. haa.. During the meeting, this particular person didn't get a post.. den some of them say "Then 'someone' leh??" and i made a suggestion and that person got a post.. just so that everyone be happy loh.. or is it? heh..

This year quite hard to chose.. most are just as good as the rest.. Unlike last year, so few people to chose from.. heh..

One more week.. And i'll pass down.. To who? I hope I can change his mind by sat and let the one that i Truly want to replace me take my post.. And that the person with NOT much Commitment not be in the Committee.. haa.. There's a reason why both words are spelt so alike(with the word COMMIT).. Because being a Committee, you need Commitment to Commit into it..
In this one week, i have to finish my project too.. Have to present it in 2 weeks time.. hee..

SenS: Surf n Sweat is Back!! Most prob gonna take part.. hee..

SENS blogged on 1:23 AM

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First Land Training..

Worst fall i had on friday.. Fell and stoned there for 5-10 secs.. Without anyone around.. My butt simply hurts too much from the slip.. heh.. Saturday got 2 cuts, but i only realised it after someone told me.. No feeling when it got cut.. heh.. My First time capsize at Kallang during training.. They don't know how to counter sia.. heh.. Disgrace.. haa..

Anyway, was Disappointed with today's training (Attendance).. How many Year 3s turned up?? Only the 4 comm members and Henry.. And Weilun came at a later time(Attachment).. Haa.. how Pathetic can it get? Year 2s? Around 10 or less than that came.. heh.. Is it because they are Sick?? Rushing Projects?? Or are just plain Scared of coming to training when heard that there is NAPFA?? haa..
MR500.. I wanna ROW!! Currently still considered as CURRENT team.. Oliver said only after Graduation Dinner then considered ALUMNI.. heh.. That means i gotta WAIT.. haa..
I just hope the attendance will get better by Next training..

SenS: I Missed Today's episode of Water Margin!! Argh.. Tomorrow must watch.. hehe..

SENS blogged on 12:32 AM

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Happy New Year!!

Its been a month since i posted.. haa.. thats because i lost interest in it.. no time and lazy too hee.. a look back at last years resolutions and, didnt really kept it well.. haha.. But the achievements i set for myself are mostly achieved.. haha.. Mostly are Gym targets.. lol.. and others which i cant achieve, can never be done by me anymore.. Like getting IVP Gold medals(unless i go UNI and row.. hee..).. Taking a look back at my 4 years as a NPDB Rower, I've never gotten any Gold medal.. heh.. But i've got GOLDEN Memories.. hee..

This year went to Siloso to count down.. yeah sentosa AGAIN.. haha.. the foam party is quite alright.. the crowd's small, and the music Haiz.. trance again.. heh.. in the end we stand OUTside SunSet Bay and dance to their music.. haha.. Starting to get lazy to blog everything down.. haha..

Something that happens to me sometimes.. They never tell me how I know? sometimes they forgot to tell me.. and when GLs ask me about it, of cos i tell them i dunno, and they would say "You're comm how can u not know?!".. Yes, I'm Supposed to know.. But if no one informs me anything about it how am i to Know? heh.. Don't come and tell me I'm supposed to find out myself.. Because, if in the first place, I didnt have a clue about it, what do u want me to find? Its like Writing without a Pen/Pencil.. Don't understand? Ask me personally and i'll give u more examples.. heh..
The first person that a GL should contact is the Head of GL.. Right? But somehow they(guys) like to call me.. Maybe because they unable to contact Treddy, they try to find Oliver or William but cant reach them? This shows that I'm the only one who's with my phone at all times and am reachable?? heh.. oh well, I'm not saying don't call me.. Yes call me.. make me feel important.. Thats why i signed up for a Free Incoming plan.. hee.. But I'm sorry if u cant get your answers from me, because Others didn't tell me anything about it.. AGM is on 21st Jan.. about 3 more weeks.. I have actually a speech in my mind to say during AGM.. but its gonna be harsh.. heh.. Think i shall not say it.. hehe..

Tml test.. haven study yet.. again.. heh.. shall go read through now.. haha..
Just told Ziling, that i feel that actually you getting an A or what for your test, is about whether you going lectures got listen or not.. Studying for test is jus a revision.. That time when i get my As and ADs during year 1, I feel confident.. when i study for tests, i feel like there's nothing study.. Partly Because i very attentive in class, and its easy.. hee.. This time round, I keep sleeping in class.. And yeah, must go study now.. heh.. thats all bah.. after common test i shall write some resolutions for this year.. =)

SenS: Happy New Year to All!! May everyone be Happier than Last Year.. and Smile even more!! To a better New Year!! Cheers!!

SENS blogged on 10:37 PM

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