1 more week..

Arh..!!! Suddenly feel like blogging.. but dunno where to start.. Feel so F up now.. Why do people like to cut in when i haven even said a Third word?? And i'm those that give in quite easily.. ( and with Manners.. hee..) Thats y, when people talk, i'll listen most of the time.. sometimes maybe trying to say, but its always jus one word from me first to check if the talker has finished his/her sentance.. if the talker continues, i'll wait again untill he finishes it.. But why when i said 'that', he has to Interrupt me with his own reason before i even state my reasonS.. Its so unlike him.. I just wait and listen loh.. after he's done, i start, but jus a short 2 words again, he state his reason again.. and i jus kept quiet after that.. Felt so pointless at that time.. I couldn't sleep the day before.. haa.. just because i'm thinking of 'that'.. About the future..

What is a Meeting for?? Lots of you would say its for Discussion and maybe pass down some message.. And this meeting is particularly for Discussion.. But he came with his own plan already.. And he just come and indirectly tell us what it is.. he did ask for some opinions, which are the easier and obvious ones.. and for some which i disagree, like i said above, when i start to state my reasons, he gave me his.. WTH.. From the start, way before the interview, he had already state his plans.. Whats the point in having a meeting when you have already Decided.. just send an E-Mail to us let us know can liao lah..

I'm sorry i was late for meeting, but the message passed was messed up.. Misunderstanding.. in the end i waited for someone who's not involved in the meeting.. Talking about passing message.. Sometimes I don't even know what's going on.. heh.. Never received any message or something.. heh.. (See previous post with something about 'Writing without a Pen/Pencil')

During the meeting, I was like so ALONE.. no one support me.. give me back up.. all support his decision.. cant blame them too.. But,

You know how it feels when you wanna state your reasonS, but someone cut in and said his first.. And before you are able to said a Third word, someone else Interrupted you and state his reason to support the 1st person.. While all along, you're ALONE with no help at all.. And not even given a Chance to state your reasonS before case closed..

F up.. Useless.. Anger.. Dissapointed.. Sad.. Du Lan.. Helpless.. When he cant give any reason, he'll just ask "Everyone agree that this person can be nurtured?? Well then we'll let him be.." he's just making it hard to say no.. I never said anything and I never nod my head.. But i think he let it be majority wins? But i never heard much "yes" coming out too.. heh.. and in the end, i feel like for the whole thing, most people are put in to be Nurtured.. and whos gonna nurture them?? haa.. Sadded.. I remember i managed to state part of one of my many reasonS.. And he said something which i feel its contradicting.. And he still disagrees with me.. Its like whatever else that i gonna say, it'll be Useless/Pointless.. So i just stop there.. Feeling Helpless.. He's just doing things HIS way.. what can I do? Someone tell me.. enlighten me.. haa.. During the meeting, this particular person didn't get a post.. den some of them say "Then 'someone' leh??" and i made a suggestion and that person got a post.. just so that everyone be happy loh.. or is it? heh..

This year quite hard to chose.. most are just as good as the rest.. Unlike last year, so few people to chose from.. heh..

One more week.. And i'll pass down.. To who? I hope I can change his mind by sat and let the one that i Truly want to replace me take my post.. And that the person with NOT much Commitment not be in the Committee.. haa.. There's a reason why both words are spelt so alike(with the word COMMIT).. Because being a Committee, you need Commitment to Commit into it..
In this one week, i have to finish my project too.. Have to present it in 2 weeks time.. hee..

SenS: Surf n Sweat is Back!! Most prob gonna take part.. hee..

SENS blogged on 1:23 AM

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